
As a child a decade seemed like forever…
now it seems like yesterday, I was told this week I’m breathing at nearly 40% of what I should be and the damage to my lungs would at best get me to 60% with treatment…I was scared that the dust from our work as sculptures had taken its toll but I was assured the damage was all from those few moments in September 10 years ago… the world watched on television ,the moments ,the hours and the days that followed and then moved on… the next generation can’t comprehend the size or scope of the towers ,they have no reference, those who felt connected by television could turn the channel… but in lower Manhattan it was impossible to escape; what we saw that Tuesday morning is seared in my nightmares, and never really goes away…I can taste the smell and feel the dust… the smell of fuel makes me edgy , I burn food and I have to go out to eat until it completely clears… I love overcast days and sunny days make me anxious…I live for this moment and have no trouble giving everything away… I say what I feel regardless… and If I love you and treasure you I always Say it … tomorrow never comes .
Every morning when I wake up the cough is painful and choking if I lay down my breathing causes pain and a cough, my nose is perpetually blocked all an endless reminder of that few moments when the world changed…..
we all changed that day, no who was in lower Manhattan really talks about what we saw, once you saw it… it was never to go away, saying it might make it real and all the specials and movies and talking is a Disney version of Hell… no one really wants to remember it all… I talked this summer to a school group about that beautiful Tuesday morning…..and what it became, it was such a beautiful day, perfect …I was up by 7 am that alone a miracle … after I tried to describe it I spent the next weeks trying to forget… mans inhumanity to man, it should and must be shown, I hear sympathy for the extremist who terrorize our world , a generation has been brainwashed to believe that we can talk to them, I tried I went to meet the monsters in my dreams and they are monsters ,the hatred is so deep that I fear nothing will change it, so we live our lives as an example , we fight and defend our values, we stand resolute in our convictions , we never back down to tyranny… their faith is their rally cry and we must recognize that it is not true faith but extreme ignorance that these few follow… I was changed 10 years ago , we all were now we must fight inside to find our humanity, we cannot crave peace at the expense of freedom… we cannot turn a blind eye in ignorance, we cannot raise arms in fear … we must grow and adapt, all men are created equal , a few will deviate , we can’t judge a team by one member …but we can be more cautious with the team until we are sure of its intent…. the game of Life has moved on and we were sent back ward its time to catch up and move forward … once again we should build to the skies , reach for the moon and dream of the achievements of man kind its time to live…….
I’ll take a moment Sunday and say a prayer and then I will live… I cant forget but its time to let someone else remember….

On notepaper from the St. Regis with a borrowed pen I began the words that defined our resilience that night. As years have past I often forget the words to Spirit of America as I wrote it that night in September. The feelings and smells will haunt me for a lifetime; the city has moved on but the scar will always remind us of the moment we lost our innocence. That night it became clear it is not where you are born or what’s on your passport that defines a nationality alone, the true definition of nationality is what’s in your heart, what you are prepared to defend with your last measure of life. These beliefs are the definition of America the common threads that bind us together woven into the symbolisms of a flag and country…and understood by the heart.
Spirit of America
© 2001 Joseph Landry R.H.
I stood alone in terror and watched the towers fall
I feared I lost my very way and feared I lost it all
Our heart and soul stripped bare and spread across the land
As I fell to my knees I felt a welcome hand.
From east and west you raised me high
And gave me cause to stand
And through the smoke I saw her fly bright colors, stars to dream
I know what freedom is; it’s inside of me
I am an American And proud to stand by you
I’ve felt freedom in my heart and nothing else will do
Stars and Stripes will wave forever
Forever I’ll be true
America, God Bless You
I was on the bridge at Concord when the shot was fired wild
I heard the cry of liberty reach across the land
I was ready in a minute to lend a helping hand
I know what freedom is I am an American
And proud to stand by you
I’ve felt freedom in my heart and nothing else will do
Stars and Stripes will wave forever
Forever I’ll be true
America, God Bless You
I stood alone at Gettysburg, I saw our darkest day when brothers’ blood was spilt in haste
I nearly lost my way.
Yet when the war was over. United one we stood
I knew what freedom was I am an American
And proud to stand by you
I’ve felt freedom in my heart and nothing else will do
Stars and Stripes will wave forever
Forever I’ll be true
America, God Bless You
I was there the day Pearl Harbor cried, I heard the country call
I marched so proud at Normandy, I knew Berlin would fall
and when the war was over and Okinawa calm
I know what freedom isI am an American
And proud to stand by you
I’ve felt freedom in my heart and nothing else will do
Stars and Stripes will wave forever
Forever I’ll be true
America, God Bless You
I’ll be in every breath you take, insure that freedom lives
I’ll defend the constitution and the rights of God it gives
I’ll give to you my final breath to save your liberty
I am what freedom is I am an American
And proud to stand by you
I’ve felt freedom in my heart and nothing else will do
Stars and Stripes will wave forever
Forever I’ll be true
America, God Bless You